Change is in the air

For the last 8 years I have worked every weekend with a great bunch of ladies. I'm going to be leaving them soon. I can't express the dread I feel. They are so much a part of my life and my every day that I can't imagine not seeing them on a regular basis anymore. I haven't talked much about my new endeavor. It's not that I'm not excited...I am...it's just well these are my girls! I don't know how I'll get by without them to talk to each weekend. I don't want to think about it. Just typing this I have tears in my eyes. I don't know who will share my life, who will understand my special brand of crazy? I'm no spring chicken. It's hard at my age to strike up new relationships. I've had babies with these girls, I've gone through good times and bad times with them. Damnit...we're a clique! I can't begin to tell you how I feel. I feel like, I don't know, like an intergral part of me is dying. It's scary out there and you need your friends, your girls. I know that the reason I'm going is the right thing for my family (and I don't doubt it it for a minute), but I am so very sad! So very, very sad! As the day grows closer I wonder...is this the right thing? Yes, yes, I know it is. But, I already miss my bitches!!! You can't know what you mean to me. I love ya'll!

It's here! It's here!

Remember me mentioning I had ordered a Super Automatic Espresso machine. Well, it arrived last night and my dh and I had anxiously unwrapped it to give it a test run. Ok...I have to admit it, I love it!!! Although, it might take me some time getting used to the strong brew. I'm a huge coffee drinker and I actually felt a bit buzzy after making myself 2 long shot mocha's this morning. I see my coffee consumption going way down, lol. There is such a huge difference in the quality of coffee/espresso you end up with. The Delonghi is so easy to use too. You simply do what the LCD tells you to do and before you know it you are sipping away. I'm going today to get a stainless steel pitcher to froth the milk in. I'm going to try frothing up some milk for a cappuccino so dh can have his favorite drink to.

Oh and I guess I can't forget to mention this. History was made last night. The first person of color was elected to the Presidency of the USA. I say person of color because I don't view him as an "African American" in the classic sense of the word, but I do see him as a person of color and I have to say I was beyond amazed that this country actually elected him. Many people will say that race isn't a factor in this country today, but I'm a black woman living in this country and racism is very much a factor in this country still. I'm cautiously optimistic about what his presidency could mean for our nation and I look on with hope in my heart.